Back to the land of the living! After a fantastic holiday stuffing my face and gaining a wonderful 5kg (I weighed 10 kg heavier when I first got home, but was mostly water which has now gone!), and putting together a perfect little detox diet for the week when I came back of vegetable juices, fresh fruit/veg/ legumes, proteins, seeds and sprouted grains...blimey I feel better!
I’m back on show dieting and prepping my foods now too to get ready for the UKBFF British Finals 2015 in Nottingham. And am on it like a car bonnet!
I needed to gain some weight. The 7 weeks of maintaining weight between the last two shows was tedious! I need a start and a finish...I need to see progression and improvements rather than just ticking over. And with the weight I gained on holiday...I now feel motivated. And I sufficiently ate copious amounts of food to come back and look forward to dieting, and a routine with no cravings.
With lots of good food and rest I feel less emotional too, hormones a little more balanced. I knew I would. Everyone feels shaken up the weeks after a show whatever the outcome, and I knew my thoughts and feelings would change once I got back to being me, and flushed out my system.
The British Grand Prix wasn’t as bad as I had first thought for me. I was only 1 point away from the 3rd place lady. 1 point away from a potential invite to the Liverpool Amateur Olympia and Arnold Classic...but now rather than pull me down, that thought now is motivation. No experiments, use what I have learn’t works, and hammer out the next few weeks and bloody nail it!
I was asking myself in my last blog why I compete? Why I put myself through it over and over when it is so taxing on the body? Especially with me all year round being such a health and fitness freak. And the reason is....I simply love show day. Competing is my only vice! I don’t drink or smoke or have any other bad habits, the only things that does tickle my fancy is showing my wears on stage.
And yes, it is for all that I mentioned before...recognition for hard work, some adoration, to show off, fulfilling my 25 year ambitions and to be unique or unusual. All these reasons and more are what I do it for. It pushes my boundaries, proves my physical control of my body and mind and it motivates my off season training giving me something to work towards. I think it is an art; to sculpt your body, balance it out and work on symmetry, correcting your form and posture and the only time you get to see what you’ve been working on all year and all of my life...is when I am stripped of my fat and water, tanned, oiled, bikini donned and with the most revealing lights pointing straight at me...only then do I know if all that food prepping and training has paid off. That’s why I put my body through those tough weeks.
So I am going to continue with the great federation that is UKBFF...and continue to compete.
After all, competing is my only vice...